Friday, March 9, 2012

Post-Jo body

When I look back at pictures of myself before I was pregnant I think, "Wow, that's a hot bod!" I wish I thought that at the time. I wish I had been able to say, "I like my body just the way it is." Hindsight is 20/20 I guess.

I gained 50 pounds with Jo. I've lost part of that. I don't know how much -- I don't own a scale (it's better for everyone that way). Now that I'm somewhere in the middle it's so frustrating. I don't know how to dress this new body. It looks different in all of my clothes. Things wiggle that didn't wiggle before. I always seem to have the dreaded muffin-top. I don't want to buy clothes since my bod keeps changing. My nursing bras are close to not fitting anymore around my rib cage. Argh. At least it keeps changing.

I'm slowly, but surely getting back into my old clothes. I know that it look nine months to put the weight on and I shouldn't expect to lose it in less than nine months, yadda yadda yadda, but I just want my old body back. I know that's not going to happen.

My body will never be the same as it was before Jo. That old hot bod is gone. It could be bigger, it could be smaller, but it will never be the same. Come to think of it, no part of me will ever be the same as it was before Jo. And I'm totally ok with that, I guess -- although I still mourn for my old life/body at times. Having Jo in my life makes all of this change easier. I have to remind myself that she's totally worth it.

I am going to treat myself though and buy a new dress this weekend. Nick and I have a date night coming up!


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  1. You look beautiful and just perfect. In time you will get back to where you want to be- just stay patient. Good for you in treating yourself to a new dress! You deserve it :)

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    1. Kristen, thank you so much! You should see the dress. It's pretty hot.

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  2. I was so surprised at how long it took me too...and I still have this awful extra skin flubber around my belly button that I am convinced will never go away. But you do look amazing! You're so tall I feel like you hide it well because I think you look perfect! Once you feel comfortable start shopping again and find a way to dress yourself that makes you feel "Hot" every day...I'm so glad high waisted pants are back in style...it helps hide the flubber! (and dresses with leggings too!)

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    1. Kirstin, thank you for your comment and compliments! It's nice to hear you say these things. I look at you and think, "She looks like she never had a baby." I'm afraid my muffin-top will never go away.

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